Today, I went through a rollercoaster of emotions. Those old thoughts of “You can’t do this.”, “You won’t do this”, “You might as well give up.” resurfaced. Add that to some other negative emotions I’ve been having as of late and it made me want to curl up in a ball and cry all day. I did not. I controlled my portion sizes and I did not over eat today. I didn’t snack on junk food and only had one dark chocolate square. I ended the day well within my calorie limit. 

Though today has been a win food-wise, it’s been a total #fail emotionally. I think a huge part of my current emotional state is the fact that I feel so ugly. I have so many beautiful friends and then there’s me. You know the phrase, “One of these things is not like the other.”? Well that’s how I feel all the time. I’m not saying this to get affirmations, I’m saying it because it’s how I feel. What I need to do now is to figure out away to stop seeing myself that way. I have to find a way to find the beauty in me. I know it’s there somewhere! ;-)

xoxo, hugs n kisses, and all that jazz,

Kimmie