April 2011
2 posts
It doesn't matter what you think!
For a very long time people’s opinion of me was my driving force. Everything I said or did revolved around how people would react. If I said what I really felt would they think I was stupid? If I admitted that I’ve never seen nor have interest to see any of The Godfather movies would they think less of me? If I shared that I often get swept away to another place and time when I listen to classical...
Fried Chicken, Where for art thou?
I know it has been an incredibly long time and I really have no excuses. I failed. I started this blog in hopes that I could get people to rally around me and support me on my journey to get healthy and you did. The amount of support I received when I started this blog was really overwhelming and I’m and truly grateful for it. But I did what I always do when things get hard. I retreated...
September 2010
2 posts
Drah-mah!
Today was unusually high in the drama department. It started basically as soon as I woke up and carried on most of the day. But I’m glad to report that that drama is over. I’m completely done with the situation and have moved on.
One thing that I noticed was that through the drama I only thought one thing. I have to be chewing something. I have to have something in my mouth. I have...
Really quick.
I’m kind of upset tonight and not really in the mood to post, but I don’t want to skip another day. Things are still going ok with my eating habits. I did get to twist my hair. I’m not a big fan of it, but it’ll do for now. I think the next time, I’ll do them smaller. Anyways here’s a pic.
xoxo, hugs n kisses, and all that jazz
Kimmie
No Compromising
For a very long time I’ve been compromising with myself. “If I can do this, then I’ll do that.” “When I do this, then this will happen.” “I’ll wait for this and then do that.” And you know what, none of the ifs, whens, waits, ever happened and I’ve always ended up doing the same things. Nothing has changed. If I keep waiting for something...
August 2010
24 posts
Let's do it.
So, I’ve been researching some self-confidence/esteem boosting exercises and have found a few I like. I’ve decided to share them and my working through them with you. On one site there was a list of 5 questions to answer about yourself. I’ll post the questions and my answers in bold.
The thing I do best is… Help others
Something I have accomplished is…
I finished...
Bad Kimmie
How dare I not post yesterday! Yesterday was such a great day! My eating habits went out of the window yesterday because I was surprised with a trip to the South Bend Chocolate Cafe. Loved every second of it!
I’ve been in high spirits for the most part. It does seem that I’ve hit a little snag in the road today, but I’m not going to let it stop. I saw a picture of myself from...
Quick Hi
I wanted to make sure I post today, because knowing me if I skip a day, I’d easily skip a week or two or forever.
So I googled self esteem boosting activities and I came across this site, http://mentalhealth.samhsa.gov/publications/allpubs/SMA-3715/activities.asp It seems to have some really good pointers and activities. I haven’t read through it completely, but I will tomorrow.
...
The Big Chop!
My hair has been chemically treated since I was 6 or 7. Whether it was a relaxer or that time of temporary insanity where I rocked the Jheri Curl. 9 months ago I decided to let go of the mask that I had created with my hair. Even after I made that decision I had a hard time accepting my natural hair, so I wore quick weaves and wigs.
I am now at the point where I’m ready to embrace myself...
Over it!
As everyone knows I’ve been a sulking ball of emotions for the last couple days. Well new day, new Kimmie! I’m back to being super motivated and ready to tackle this thing head on! Yeah, I still have insecurity issues, I’m trying to find ways to work on that. Yeah, I still have a helluva long way go with my weight, but I’m going to do it! I’m going to win this battle....
Bleh!
I said I would post everyday so here goes. I’m not sure what to say today. I haven’t been feeling it. I’ve been really sad the last couple days. I’ve wanted to do nothing but cry all day. I know the reason but am not ready to share it. I pray tomorrow’s better.
Mama Said There'd Be Days Like This...
Today sucked! I ate more at lunch than I should have. I’ve been a ball of emotions. I’ve been really irritable and wanted to snap peoples neck for the smallest thing! I’ve also wanted to curl up into a ball and wail most of the day. Needless to say, Eve SUCKS!
xoxo
Kimmie
"I wish I listened. I also wish they were still...
Beautiful BEAUTIFUL post!! It’s really not to late to “thank” them. As long as the help they offered produces fruit in you life, the mission is accomplished. Just don’t let their help go to waste and it will never be too late. They did it for you and not for themselves. GO KiMMi! <3
Let That Baby Eat!
I’ve been struggling with my weight since I was little. And since I was little people have had absolutely no problem telling me I had a weight issue. If I had a nickel for every time I heard. “Girl, you getting big!”, “What you been eating?”, “Yall need to put that girl on a diet.”, “You need to learn to back away from the table.”, “Try...
5 tags
One Little Victory
Today was great! I saw Vampires Suck, which was a pretty good spoof. I was happy and smiling all day. For dinner today we went to Dairy Queen. The “healthy” selection at Dairy Queen is virtually non existent so I was prepared for that. I knew I was going to eat unhealthy and I was ok with that for tonight. What I wasn’t sure about was my ability to resist all the chocolate,...
WatchMy first vlog! :-)
Wait….me? Vlog? What? o.O
5 tags
Oh yeah!
I know on this journey I’ll have ups and downs and wins and losses, well today is a way up! So far today I’ve eaten a grilled chicken salad and watermelon, WIN. I’m super motivated, WIN. I’m happy today, WIN WIN WIN!
I’ve decided that on this journey, I’m going to forgive myself for my failures and celebrate my wins. So as of right now, August 20th at 12:08pm,...
Letting Go
Ok, I promise I won’t be posting so much, but it’s Day One, ya know? You know that saying, “People always want what they can’t have.”? Why is that? There is this one thing that I want so bad! But I can’t have it. The more I try to convince myself I can’t have it, the more I want it. Why? Why can’t I just realize that it’s not meant for me and...
Today was a #Win and a #Fail
Today, I went through a rollercoaster of emotions. Those old thoughts of “You can’t do this.”, “You won’t do this”, “You might as well give up.” resurfaced. Add that to some other negative emotions I’ve been having as of late and it made me want to curl up in a ball and cry all day. I did not. I controlled my portion sizes and I did not over...
7 tags
Dear Chocolate...
Dear Chocolate,
We’ve had a long road together, you and I. You’ve seen me through some incredibly rough emotional spots. You’ve been my comforter and my friend. I’ve turned to you when I’ve felt I had no where else to turn. I’m sorry to say this, but I’m going to have to let you go. I’ve been using you to fill a hole that only God can. That’s not fair to you, me, and most certainly not to...
Phil 4:13
Kim: I can’t tell you how proud I am of you for stepping out and finding Kim! You are a beautiful young lady and I for one love you very much. Phil 4:13 says, “I can do all things through Christ who strenghtens me.” So the 1st thing Let go of everything that holds you down. Be done with the fear of man, fear of loss and failure, and carnal desires. Think on these things...
Weepy
This morning I woke up crying and for no good reason. From the time I made my first post last night to now the only thing that happened was I got TONS of encouragment and sleep. I’m taking this as a ploy of the enemy to discourage me and make me fall back into my same pattern: Get super motivated, get sad, change nothing. Well not this time pal. Day One….Let’s do this!
so here’s a couple things the nutritionist told me that I can remember off the top of my head.
1-drink an 8 oz glass of water 30 mins before eating
2-use smaller plates (makes your brain think you’re eating more)
3-drink more water with your meal and stop eating when you feel full
I love you!!!
I am sooooo proud of you and soooo encouraged by this post! I will be here for you…I know I have said that before too, but we need each other and in this life and I WILL be here for you!!!!! I am so excited for this journey!!!
Here Goes...
Ok, so as most of you know I’m fat. Not just thick or chubby, I mean really fat. I’ve been fat for longer than I can remember. Going from a fat kid to a fat adult has come with a whole lot of baggage for me. I have every kind of insecurity there is. I also suffer from feeling worthless, ugly, unlovable, irrelevant, hopeless, and just about any other negative self emotion you can think...